I’m telling a story that involves anthropomorphic fire. 

2012 Editing Reel
I finally put together my new reel. I had been putting it off so the projects I’m working on now can be included, but the search for the next project won’t wait!
Thanks to Forkmanteau for the music.
Dismantling Detroit
David, who is from Detroit, sees this and reminds me of the factories there, the people ready and willing to work. He tells me that solar technology could really take off in Detroit.
As the man in the video says, “We need to make more stuff.” Still, the point is that this material is going to China to make stuff there cheaper than these men would make it in the US.
The other point is collectivism. At what point do the leaders of industry see the creation of a healthy community at home to be more valuable than maximizing monetary profits? Wouldn’t it be beautiful to walk through a thriving part of town and know that you were making that?
Density
Perhaps the most fascinating aspect of Detroit is that it is actually still has a relatively high population. Even as it is the poster child for decline and decay, more people live in Detroit than in Portland, OR. As of the 2010 census, Detroit is even more dense than Portland. The total land mass is basically the same between the two cities, but Detroit has about 125,000 more people.
There were signs of life. Creative projects like the one above, beckoned from the highway. There were also people walking and driving on the street. Even though Detroit’s main theme is abandonment, it’s not empty. The problem is that the construction echos cities like New York and San Francisco, but the traffic is more in line with a much smaller city. It’s creates a feeling of emptiness that is perhaps greater than the reality. Similar to how a circle will look small when placed next to a large one, but that same circle will be huge when placed next to a small one, Detroit’s architecture is very big.
Urban and Rural Collapse
The compounding of urban and rural landscapes collapses time. Urban spaces have a sense of progress and possibility. Even, or maybe especially, older urban buildings remind us that human ingenuity looks ahead and builds great structures and machines as new discoveries give us more complete knowledge about our world. Cities are the inevitable result of our evolutionary rise away from a primitive past.
It is the old agricultural rural landscapes that are generally decaying as a part of this process. The forgotten ghost towns far away from the cities, where people have left the hard farming life for urban opportunity are the necessary sacrifices to a better life in the city.
This is all backward in Detroit. It is a ghost city. The dream of industrial progress moved to China and all the people with money fled. The inevitable progress to greater technological complexity in America has slid backward.
Detroit
December 2011. I was in love with the wild natural space in the middle of the city. I thought it was beautiful to see the land reclaim territory that had once been a thriving industrial metropolis. It actually gave me a sense of hope to see how quickly life takes over an empty lot.
The man walking away didn’t see it that way. He saw emptiness where a vibrant community used to stand. He saw signs that his home is decaying and there isn’t anything he can do about it because the winds of industry have changed, and only industry can build a place like Detroit. He thinks someone should turn that space into a garden.
I agree.
Being eaten by spiders
I read a book about altered states when I was in college. Dr. Rick Strassman injected 60 people with this psychedelic substance in a controlled setting and recorded what they experienced.
Many people spoke of beautiful alien-deity beings, rich colors, a sense of well-being and connection with organization on an order generally unavailable to our waking consciousness. But there was one man who mentioned having a hard time in this altered state. It was only after his entire body was covered and then eaten by spiders that he saw the beauty that the other participants had described. It’s been a while since I read the book, so my memory of this man’s story is lacking in details, but this theme has stuck with me.
It is a very public secret of mine that I am healing from childhood trauma. I often feel like I am facing a wall of angry arachnids, except I don’t know what that man knew and I am yet to figure out how to submit to them. But I am at this point in the healing process where it feels like that is all that is left to do.
It is a leap of faith that there will be beautiful alien-deities on the other side of this hungry arachnid wall, but even if there aren’t, I’m sure everything else in the world will suddenly seem a lot less scary.
Immaterials
Sometimes, I’ll stop and think about all the communication happening in the air around me that I cannot immediately perceive. Radio, television and wifi signals are currently filling the room I am sitting in, even though it is silent and this computer is connected with a wire. These guys think about this, too, and they make it beautiful.





